Tuesday, April 26, 2011

Neck - Ed

The world needs more polished individuals that are bound by invisible borders, hierarchal decision-making, engaging smiles that hide the truth.

No. not really.

Thought of the day: Be yourself

Monday, April 25, 2011

mindful monday :: harm

Have my good intentions proved harmful once again?
Has my focus and dedication made me narrow-minded & thoughtless?
Can I see beyond the task at hand- am I blinded to an inner truth?

My carefully crafted words and silence are merely clouds of smoke in which I hide for I am not yet strong enough to talk aloud nor walk a truth that buries me alive.

I am too easily taken in by the tide. Among the jelly fish and sharks I feel safe. Another would have shrugged and grabbed the lifesaver, instead I allow the undertow to take hold.

Thought of the Day: who have you harmed with words left unsaid?

Wednesday, April 20, 2011

a life imposed

I am living right now with an intimate reluclant immediacy- a period of transition really- so bright, yet so dark.

I endure what is expected of me, with a heavy heart and a ruminating mind, only to dream of a future unknown.

Thought of the day: A work that matters I do not seek, but a self and soul realized would be quite simply perfect.

Monday, April 18, 2011

Mindful Monday :: mindful of just how much I am not mindful

I know this is silly, but so much of my effort to be mindful is due to fact that I AM NOT THAT MINDFUl!

And so, I either "do" or "don't do." When I "do," I eat salad, I get up and stretch, I work out, I make nice meals, I do the laundry, I call my family and friends.

And.. When I don't do.. I don't work out, I don't eat as healthy, I forget to take breaks, I don't call my friends and family,I don't keep up with chores, I walk past the trash, I never make it to the fridge (let alone cooking a meal) because I've devoured what's in the cupboards

And each day I either "do" or I "dont do"

Thought of the Day: today I practice non judgement.

Saturday, April 16, 2011

blowing up expectations

Crap. It is Friday night, but technically Saturday morning and so once again, in what appears to be a very bad habit, I will not have made my "deadline" to post on this blog. Not only that, but I have no interest in writing about food (re: my Food Friday posts). Athough, I have developed a fondness for incorporating a full roasted garlic bulb into my evening dietary regime. As I have nothing more to add on the subject, I will leave it at that.

ahhh.. yes. Friday night and I am in my bed, in sweats with a tousled mane of blond ambition gone so terribly wrong, that I can't bring myself to care when I look in the mirror. I have already tried to remedy the situation at least once. I will spare you a picture on this blog, but my hair kinda resembles a cross between Mufasa and John Galliano. If I keep this up, I am sure to win a Halloween contest come Fall.
Have I set the scene sufficiently?...I'm kinda practicing. I hope this all sounds PG.

I finally finished Sloane Crosley's book,  I Was Told There'd Be Cake. I started the book two years ago and managed to pick it up a few times never making it past chapter 3- occasionally skimming ahead to see when/ if it got better.

Tonight I finished the entire book of presonal essays in one gluttonous sitting.  And, I think I found out what took me so long. Her essays are annoyingly LONG. Yet what made me eventually finish the book is that her writing style is on. I hungrily read her stories. She has been compared and touted as the next David Sedaris, and while I think the comparison is genuinely deserved, what she could have adequately captured in four or five pages, takes her ten or eleven.  

That said, I am anxious to read her next book, How Did You Get This Number, and see how she is developing as a writer. With pals such as poet Elizabeth Spiers, and a former career as a literary publicist in NYC, she has fans in high places and no doubt a successful career as a writer ahead. 

On a side note, I made a decision today about my day job. My eventual goal is to go part time and take some classes. It always takes me too long to see through my own cloud of delusion, imagining that somehow tomorrow will be better the present. It feels good to get past that. Another opportunity to be more truthful with myself.

Thursday, April 14, 2011

rainbows & butterflies

A little less than three years ago I was telling a friend of mine my vision for living a life filled with rainbows and butterflies. In other words, a life filled with beauty, harmony, rhythm, peace, kindness and love.

Thought of the Day: Could such a life exist? Or are we destined to encounter a life filled with obstacles and great difficulties?

Monday, April 11, 2011

Mindful Monday :: the gift

I was just about to drift off into dreamland tonight when I realized I did not post today.
Luckily I was meditating on a beautiful thought and a perfect thing to share.

Everything we do in this life, we must do with love. We have the opportunity to be loving with our actions, words and interactions. Yet, are we?

Tip of the Day: Be loving in everything!

Friday, April 8, 2011

Food Friday :: farmers market and gardens

The Portland Farmers market is here, along with growing season?
What should I plant this year?

Wednesday, April 6, 2011


Last night I was working to complete my taxes. blech. By the time I finished and made irmt inti bed, I realized I had not yet blogged. I thought about jumpingout of bed for about three seconds, but then I rolled over, cuddled with the blond fox and fell fast asleep.

Thought of the Day: Sometimes life cramps your style.

Monday, April 4, 2011

Mindful Monday :: Mindful at Work

Another Monday, and a soaking wet one at that. I am face-to-face with some busy days at work. My job is cyclical in nature. Each year I plan three conferences, each month I organize two teleconferences and each week I put out a newsletter, manage various timeline and reporting duties, in addition to a host of other tasks and duties that "just pop up."

the repetitive nature of my job is both comforting anmd soul crushing. My intention each day is to be mindful of who I am being.

To be minful at work is a great challenge for some.

Thought of the Day: what is on your mind at work?

Saturday, April 2, 2011

Food Friday :: Sun and Berries!!!

Ok, first off it is now 1 a.m. and officially Saturday. Hello weekend!

This Friday was filled with sun and after 29 days of rain, the warm rays of Spring felt like food for my soul. Yum..yum..yum

I read a blog post today by Derek Sivers about saying "hell no" to that in life which you are not saying "hell yes" to. The jist of the post is that whatever part of life that is not a he'll yea for you, should be re-evaluated.

One area I think is especially important to apply this concept to, is food! When I think about what I would love to be eating I think of fresh ripe cherries and berries for breakfast combined with al dente oatmeal cooked with almond milk and slightly sweetened. I also think of pickled vegetables and beautiful spreads and picnics that include all my favorite foods hummus, avocadoes, sweet peppers, mangoes, fresh etc.

Thought of the Day: what Foods to you say he'll yea to?

Friday, April 1, 2011

Acts of Kindness

In our busy lives it can be hard to remember to reach out to those we love and care for. Yet small gifts and acts of kindness are arguably some of the most beautiful contributions we make to one another.

Every once in awhile I feel the urge to do something for another such as send flowers to my sister, mail a handmade note to a friend or relative or treat my boyfriend to a special dinner/ adventure.

Sometimes we can reach out to another by paying attention, spending time or simply listening to them.

Thought of the Day: What acts of kindness have you done for another lately?